Amidst life’s chaos, alcohol was my unwavering companion.

And celebrate, I certainly did.

The reaction from those around me ranged from amused curiosity to sheer disbelief.

Ultimately, I had to navigate this journey independently.

I’ve discovered how to be comfortable in my own company without needing to numb myself.

Though the response from others around me was a mixture of bemusement and horror.

But I had to work that out on my own.

Entering recovery

I’ve also learnt to be with myself without anaesthetising myself.

Could I start a business in mocktail workshops and catering events?

Sarah started her own business teaching mocktail workshops. Source: Supplied

I soon enrolled in two courses: a women’s mentoring program and a business qualification.

It’s now been a year since I officially launched my business. My kitchen table is my office, and my son’s old bedroom is my stock room.

Celebrating the downhill run

I often assess whether my actions and choices feel congruent with who I am and who I want to be. But I’m also okay sitting with ambiguity while I figure out the answers.

Sarah and her two kids. Source: Supplied

At 50, I’m on the downhill run. I’m probably not going to get another 50 years of good health and being limber.