In a heartfelt interview on Wednesday night, Erika Kirk, the widow of late conservative activist Charlie Kirk, opened up about the tragic circumstances surrounding her husband’s death. Speaking with Jesse Watters on Fox News, Erika revealed that she has deliberately avoided watching the footage of her husband’s assassination. “I never saw the video. I never will see it. I never want to see it,” Erika explained. “There are certain images that once seen, stay with you forever, marking your soul.”

She further emphasized her desire to avoid reliving that horrific moment, saying, “I don’t want my husband’s public assassination to be something I ever see. It’s disturbing that anyone would find that watchable.” The interview also included insights from Mikey McCoy, Chief of Staff at Turning Point, who recounted calling Erika immediately after Charlie was shot, informing her of the tragic event.

Additionally, Erika addressed the aftermath of her husband’s death, particularly a controversial moment involving comedian Jimmy Kimmel. Kimmel had made jokes about Charlie’s murder, prompting Erika to be asked if she expected an apology. “I told them we received their note. This is not our issue. It’s not our mess,” she responded to Watters. Erika is set to honor her husband’s legacy by accepting the inaugural Charlie Kirk Legacy Award at the Fox News Patriot Awards on Thursday evening.

Kirk was shot dead on September 10 while speaking at a Turning Point USA event at Utah Valley University. Tyler Robinson, 22, a left-wing college dropout, has been charged with his assassination. Kirk’s widow, Erika, joined President Donald Trump at the White House last month to accept the Presidential Medal of Freedom posthumously on her husband’s behalf.

Kirk had built Turning Point USA into one of the most influential conservative youth organizations in America, known for its campus activism and annual conferences that drew thousands of young conservatives. After his death, Erika publicly delivered a statement vowing to carry on his work as the new CEO of the organization. Trump memorably eulogized Kirk at his memorial service days later and comforted Erika who mourned the loss of her husband.

‘We know the weight of this monumental loss is almost unbearable,’ he said. ‘But even in the midst of heartache and pain too great to even fathom, you have somehow found the strength and deep faith to be a comfort to millions and millions of people.’ More than 60,000 people attended the service which was held at State Farm Stadium, home of the Arizona Cardinals NFL team.