‘I’m having panic attacks’: Kim Kardashian admits to fashion identity crisis

Kim Kardashian opens up about more drama involving her ex Kanye West, while also admitting to having ‘panic attacks’ about finding her fashion identity – after years of being styled by West himself – in the latest episode of The Kardashians. 

The 41-year-old Kim revealed that she went to her first event without being styled by Kanye, who responded by telling her that her career is over.

He compared the dress she was wearing to one worn by The Simpsons character Marge Simpson, while also complaining in an interview that SNL ‘made’ her say she was divorcing Kanye, adding he hadn’t seen any divorce papers… while Kim claimed that Kanye is actually refusing to sign the divorce papers.

Kourtney Kardashian was visiting her sister Kim, when she asked how everything was going with Kanye, as Kim revealed the latest bit of drama in their divorce saga. 

‘He did an interview last night, saying that SNL got me to say that I divorced him,’ as they replay the joke she told on SNL, which she revealed on last week’s episode that Kanye didn’t like.

Kim revealed during a hike with Khloe that Kanye was mad about the joke because she used the word ‘divorce’ and not that she had simply ‘filed’ for divorce, and he was mad that she called him a rapper, saying he was ‘so much more than that’ at this stage in his career.

They played the joke again where she said, ‘When I divorced him, you have to know it came down to just one thing: his personality,’ which drew big laughs from the SNL audience, though Kanye apparently didn’t think was funny.

‘I came prepared with my monologue and that really upset him. I showed him the monologue but he says he never read it, like he just didn’t read the text,’ Kim adds.

‘Kanye had a hard time with what I said,’ as they play a clip from Kanye’s interview.

‘SNL making my wife say ‘I divorced him’ on TV because they just wanted to get that bar off and I ain’t never seen the papers. We’re not even divorced,’ Kanye said in the interview.

Kourtney adds that he said that, ‘because it’s not final,’ and Kim explains that he said, ‘I haven’t signed the divorce papers.’

Kourtney wondered, ‘Well what’s he waiting for?’ as Kim responds, ‘I don’t know, I ask him all the time.’

‘He says he will and then he says, ‘Well I don’t want a divorce so I’m not gonna sign em,” Kim tells Kourtney.

Kim adds in confession that she has always been, ‘super protective of Kanye and not sharing a lot of the negative things that have happened, just because he’s not here doing the show.’

‘Also, if I do something on a reality show then it’s like, ‘How dare she talk about it,’ and then he can do a song about it and, ‘That’s so creative and expressive.’ It’s always two different sides are being expressed two different ways, and one is respected and one is not,’ Kim says.

‘I’m very sure now. I knew it had to be done when I filed, because I knew it just wasn’t the right situation for me, and now I feel super good,’ Kim told Kourtney.

Kourtney added, ‘I think you’re like, Who am I now?’ as Kim confirmed, ‘Yeah, you’re right. I got to a point where I would just like ask him for advice for everything even down to what I wear. Even now I’m having like panic attacks like, ‘What do I wear?”

She added that Kanye, ‘styled me all for SNL, then at the Wall Street Journal Magazine, I won the Innovator Award for SKIMS.’

‘I was like, how do I wear something that hasn’t been pre-vetted first?’ as Kourtney asked if it made her nervous if what she wore was a, ‘bad outfit,’ and Kim replied, ‘So nervous.’

Kim added that Kanye called her after the Wall Street Journal awards, ‘And he told me my career is over and he showed me a picture of Marge Simpson wearing something similar,’ as Kourtney didn’t know how to respond to that.

The episode begins with Kim studying furiously for the bar exam, adding ‘this month has been insane. SNL, Kourtney and Travis got engaged, I’m dealing with some stuff with Kanye, but today is my birthday.

She adds in confession, ‘I am 41 today and the only thing on my mind is taking the baby bar, and its coming up any minute,’ referring to the The First-Year Law Students’ Examination.

‘This is my last chance to take this test, and if I don’t pass, my whole law school journey is over,’ she adds in confession.

‘Last year I took the (baby) bar right after my birthday, but like I went on a full birthday trip, I made that the priority. This year, I don’t give a s**t. A birthday party is not important to me. I cannot be worried about a party. I do not want to see people. I just need to study,’ she added.

Naturally, the next scene cuts to the family getting together with a number of gifts as they prepare a surprise party for Kim.

Kourtney adds in confession, ‘Kim did not want a birthday party this year because of the bar, but of course, in our family, we like to celebrate.’

Kris is seen hurrying people out of the building, adding in confession, ‘I’m her mom. Of course we’re gonna do something.

We get a glimpse at the spread laid out for the party, as Kris tells a camera person they are, ‘ruining the surprise’ before Kim’s longtime friend/partner Tracy Romulus brings Kim in, much to her surprise.

She gets hugs from the family as everyone wishes her a happy birthday and sing her the Happy Birthday song, with others like cousin Cici Bussey and friends La La Anthony and Nadia Stewart giving her celebratory hugs.

‘I honestly couldn’t be more happy. It really warmed my soul that my whole family is here and all my best friends are here,’ Kim says in confession.

At the party she gives Khloe a hug, and jokes that she should have told her something so she’d put some makeup on.

Kim added in confession that her, ‘favorite Armenian food Carousel is here. I’ve been going to Carousel with my dad since I was a little girl.’

She adds at the table with her family, ‘You know you’ve made it when Madonna texts you,’ as the room is stunned with one person heard saying, ‘Stop it!’

Kim reads the text aloud for everyone – ‘Hey birthday girl. Love and good wishes. I’m not sure where you are but I hope you’re doing something fun today. Love you. M.’

Khloe adds in confession, ‘I am so happy that Kim is able to take a break from studying and now she gets to be surrounded by all her besties,’ as we see a shot of Kim’s best friend Allison Azoff Statter.

The family starts sharing their favorite Kim stories, with Kourtney saying that Khloe and Kim drove Kim’s car out, as Khloe said they had a ‘college party’ and they called it ‘Khlo-motion.’

Khloe adds, ‘There was this guy there that I had a crush on. He was like the hottest plastic Ken Barbie doll. He definitely does not have big d**k energy.’

Kourtney added that his nickname was ‘Big Balls,’ but Khloe added, ‘You can have big balls and not a big d**k,’ as someone else says, ‘Big ball energy is not the same.’

Khloe is in confession getting her hair brushed as she asks the crew, ‘What’s the difference between BDE and BBE’ but no one has heard of that, with one saying, ‘I’m scared’ as Khloe starts to laugh.

‘What the f**k are the balls gonna do for me?’ Khloe adds in confession, while at the party she says, ‘I don’t want BBE. I’ll take BDE all day long.’

‘Your tiny penis and you need these big balls? That’s mortifying,’ Khloe adds in confession, as she explains that BDE is, ‘like you’re just like cocky and confident because you have a big d**k.’

Kourtney adds in confession, ‘Who doesn’t like confidence, you know?’ while Kris adds at the party that, ‘later in life, they all lose their hair and they don’t look the same and they have a pot belly.’

Kim walks in with Tracy and says she loves them all, ‘but I’m kicking you all out because I’ve got to study, adding in confession, ‘I’ve got one shot to do this test. One last shot. And if I’m partying, then I’m gonna mess it up, so I’ve just gotta focus.’

The episode transitions to Kourtney’s house, as Kris comes over to visit, saying Kourtney looks cute, but before they can chat, Kris’ phone rings in her purse on the table.

‘I am very comfortable. I cannot get that,’ Kris says, as the phone continues to ring in her bag, as Kris says she can’t believe she’s engaged and wants to see the ring again.

Kourtney is covering her left hand with her right, explaining to Kris, ‘I’m covering it because it’s actually getting fixed,’ adding this was, ‘probably one of the worst things I’ve ever done.’

‘I was sitting on my floor, folding sweatshirts and I took the ring off and I put it next to me on the floor, like thinking it would be safe,’ as Kris told her to, ‘get to the punch line.’

‘I had to get something up above in my closet, and when I stepped down I stepped on the ring,’ Kourtney said, as a stunned Kris said, ‘You broke your engagement ring?’

‘I was hysterically crying in my closet for like hours and then I called Travis and was like, ‘I did something really really bad,’ Kourtney said, adding Travis, ‘handled it the best.’

Kourtney added that it, ‘really gave me a nervous breakdown,’ as Kris let out a deep sigh of relief and said it was going to give her a nervous breakdown.

‘I was just like, this is the most beautiful thing I’ve had in my life and how could I have done that,

Kourtney told her mom, who said the ring was, ‘so pretty.’

Kourtney added in confession, ‘Travis picked it out, he designed it, he looked at so many stones and was like this is me in a stone, so I thought that was just really special.’

Kris asks if she told Kourtney the story about how Travis came over, and asked for her hand in marriage.

‘He goes, do you wanna know the real reason why I moved to Calabasas? Because I knew she lived in Calabasas and I knew she was the love of my life, and I didn’t even know her like that but I just knew if I couldn’t date her, be with her, because she was with someone else, that at least I could live by her.’

Kourtney added, ‘I’ve never met a better human in my life. The thoughtfulness and just everything,’ as Kris said it was, ‘such an amazing moment.’

Kris added, ‘Now that you’re engaged, do you think it might be time for you to have like a real sit-down with Scott?’

‘I don’t know that I need to,’ Kourtney said, mirroring her response to Khloe on the phone in last week’s episode after she visited Scott’s house after the engagement.

Kris asks if she has talked to him at all, and Kourtney says they, ‘talk about the kids all the time,’ as Kris wonders if he congratulated her.

‘He said, ‘This is not the easiest for me, and at the end of the day I just want you to be happy, and, you know, congrats on the engagement,’ Kourtney told Kris, who said, ‘That’s nice.’

Kourtney added in confession, ‘I don’t really think that me getting engaged is about Scott. Undeniably, my life is going in a different direction. I feel like I am living like a fairy tale, making new memories and new moments and I don’t necessarily want Scott at all of them.’

Kris says that the family all loves that she’s this happy and they love Travis, ‘but with Scott, it just wasn’t meant to be.’

‘But he… woe is me, he didn’t do all this stuff,’ Kourtney said flippantly, but Kris added, ‘I’m just telling you, from somebody else’s perspective, all that really matters at the end of the day is the love that you show for the kids and they feel like there’s not one parent pitted against the other,’ which Kourtney solemnly agreed with.

The episode picks up with Kris and Kim enjoying their breakfast, with Kim adding in confession that today is the day she takes the baby bar, adding, ‘It’s do or die.’

Kris says a prayer at breakfast, asking God to, ‘put your angels around Kim today. Let her have confidence and guidance and every single thing she’s learned, please bring that to the front of her mind so that she answers each and every question so easily. In Jesus’ name we pray, Amen.’

Back in confession, a producer says that law school is, ‘so much work,’ asking her, ‘Why are you putting yourself through all this?’

‘I think it just started off with me wanting to know more, and me wanting to help more, but then it kind of was just wanting to prove something to me personally,’ she said.

‘No one has really respected a reality star with a sex tape, and I’ve really just had to break through this stigma and I want to prove this to myself that I can do it, and, ultimately, a huge like f**k you to everybody too that thought I can’t grow or move beyond where I was,’ she said.

Kim keeps studying over breakfast, telling herself, ‘I know all of this. I gotta say, what really trips me out is I didn’t know any of this last time.’

Kris adds she is probably, ‘so prepared,’ as she takes her breakfast to go and says she will be ‘amazing’ before leaving.

‘I feel good, I feel prepared, and I’m just gonna be really positive. I feel good. I have no other option. This is f***ing Game 7,’ Kim says.

After the test, Kourtney comes over to visit, asking how the test went as Kim says, ‘I just don’t know anymore. Like I’ll be f***ing humiliated if I don’t pass, at this point.’

Kourtney asks if she can take it again, but Kim just shakes her head, as Kourtney reveals that she originally wanted to be a lawyer.

‘Whenever I’m talking to Travis he’s like, ‘You should’ve been an attorney,’ and I’m like, I was going to,’ Kourtney says, as Kim adds she had, ‘no idea’ Kourtney wanted to be a lawyer.

‘That’s crazy that I just learned that about you,’ Kim adds, as Kourtney says she thinks about, ‘all these things that I went through and then I feel like you go through them after me.’

‘Totally. It’s like identical… what are you trying to say?’ Kim asked with a laugh, as Kourtney said it was not about, ‘certain situations.’

Kourtney shared that Khloe told her, ‘I don’t think I’m ready for single Kim,’ as Kim asked, ‘Why? What is single Kim?’

The episode cuts to Miami, where Kendall is hanging out with Hailey Bieber as Kendall gushes over Dior sunglasses that Kendall says are, ‘so cute,’ as Hailey adds they are, ‘so vintage.’

‘I am in Miami with my friend Hailey. We are on the way to see some friends and we are just going to get some nice IV bags. It’s what we consider a really fun day,’ Kendall adds in confession.

She adds that she has been a hypochondriac her whole life, ‘literally since I can remember, and so I am obsessed with health right now.’

Kendall says health is her, ‘number one priority, I’d say, to the point where I’m like eating myself alive thinking about my health.’

She also opens up about having COVID-19, which she admitted during her brief appearance in the series premiere, adding, ‘I wasn’t really that sick. I’d say I got pretty lucky.’

‘I’d say that my recovery was harder than my COVID, which was really weird to me,’ she said in confession.

She tells one of the NAD IV workers in Miami that, ‘I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I talked to a doctor the other day and they said that post-COVID, sometimes you can have like heightened cortisol and my cortisol levels haven’t evened out yet,’ which he agrees with.

She tells Hailey that it’s, ‘very strange,’ adding she is, ‘two months out now and I still don’t feel very good. I just feel f***ing weird.’

They give her an NAD IV with extra Vitamin C, with Kendall saying in confession that, ‘things like this, they comfort me. They help because it just makes me happy and I don’t want anyone to judge me.’

Hailey asks if doing NAD, ‘multiple days in a row is fine,’ with one of the other workers saying, ‘It wouldn’t be harmful, but at a certain point you kind of saturate your receptors.’

Kendall says that her and Hailey both are, ‘really big on our health journey for sure,’ as Hailey adds, ‘It makes for a great friendship.’

‘I’m gonna NAD for the rest of my life and I’m never gonna age,’ Hailey proclaims with a laugh.

Back in Los Angeles, Kris meets Scott Disick at Maria’s Italian Kitchen, with Scott saying he missed her.

Kris says they haven’t been at the restaurant since Keeping Up With the Kardashians, as Scott asks if they know what the new show is called.

‘Kardashians, I think. We were gonna call it The Disicks…’ as Scott interrupts, ‘But then you felt like you don’t invite me to half the s**t you do anymore anyways, so why call it The Disicks?’

Kris cheerfully adds, ‘I invited you to lunch for my birthday,’ as a stunned Scott realizes, ‘This is our birthday lunch?’

Kris asks, ‘Did you bring a gift?’ as Scott says, ‘This is not your birthday lunch,’ and Kris says it is and Scott says, ‘You’re lying. We’re gonna go to a diner for your birthday?’

‘This is not a proper place you would go to to celebrate one’s birthday, especially not your glamorous a**,’ Scott adds, asking if there’s a birthday party.

‘Not really a birthday party, no grandkids, but a few of my kids are gonna come over. They haven’t seen the house at all,’ Kris tells Scott.

‘Is that a party?’ Scott sharply asks, as Kris says, ‘We’re gonna have dinner… on Friday,’ as Scott adds, ‘Nobody told me.’

Kris says she feels like she’s, ‘cheating on Kourtney if I tell you, because I would love for you to come over,’ while a confused Scott says, ‘Why would I not come over?’

‘You told me I was your blood-related son when my parents died,’ Scott tells Kris, who responds, ‘I still feel the same way,’ though Scott adds, ‘You obviously don’t.’

‘I love my children unconditionally and I fall in love with their partners throughout the years,’ Kris says in confession, adding that Scott was there the first day they filmed Keeping Up With the Kardashians.

‘So I think when stuff like this happens, it hurts all of us,’ Kris says in confession, before telling Scott at their lunch, ‘If you want to hang out, come hang out. It isn’t something where I’ve really invited anybody to a party.’

A clearly frustrated Scott adds, ‘You’re obviously doing something and you’re like embarrassed to keep it from me,’ as Kris adds, ‘I’m not doing anything.’

‘It went from seeing your house to having a dinner, and your dinners are like catered, (party planner) Mindy Weiss is probably there. Is there valet parking?’ Scott asks, and Kris says no.

Scott adds in confession, ‘I don’t know how Kris is trying to push this past me as not a party. I mean, first it starts as, ‘It’s a house tour.’

At lunch, Scott asks if there’s a chef for the party, and a smiling Kris says, ‘Kind of,’ and Scott asks what kind of food and Kris says Nobu.

‘It’s ridiculous. So it’s a catered Nobu with a chef,’ Scott says at lunch, adding in confession, ‘Then it turns into a catered meal by one of the fanciest restaurants in the world.’

Scott complains that it started out, ‘as a walk-through of your house,’ and Kris says, ‘It is… and a meal.’

Back in confession, Scott complains, ‘This sounds like the f***ing Oscars and you’re trying to take me to lunch at Maria’s for a chopped salad? What am I, chopped liver?’

Kris adds at lunch, ‘If you and Travis are cool, then…’ as Scott insists, ‘We’re fine. For me to hear that you are having a little soiree and you don’t think to invite me makes me feel like complete s**t, to be honest. I love you but how would you think I would feel?’

Kris adds in confession that, ‘Kourtney met her soul mate. That’s gotta be hard for Scott to absorb, but I never expected him to be so angry and wound up over this. He just needs to grow up and be a little more mature.’

Back at lunch, Scott says, ‘It’s like tainted. I’d rather just take you out to dinner, to be honest. I don’t want to go to some place where I’m not wanted.’

Kris insists that he’s, ‘always wanted,’ but Scott insists, ‘I’m not. Could you imagine if I singled you out. Like it’s just mean.’

Kris says, ‘I don’t have a mean bone in my body,’ but Scott snaps back, ‘You do,’ as a stunned Kris says, ‘Wow, that’s shady’ as Scott just shrugs.

Back at Kris’ house, she’s trying on dresses in front of stylist Jesus Guerrero adding she has Paris Hilton’s wedding and then family friend Simon Huck and Phil Riportella’s rehearsal dinner and wedding.

She pulls out an elegant white gown that she’s thinking about wearing to the wedding, adding, ‘it’s a gay wedding, there’s no goals.’

‘I think that fashion has always been something that I’ve been really into, but I’ve never been like the creative,’ Kim adds in confession.

Kim holds up the white gown and asks Jesus, ‘How would I do my hair?’ as he says, ‘I think you should have your hair up for sure.’

‘I definitely see what I like, but I’ve never really been the visionary,’ adding that Kanye would always style her when they were together.

‘Kanye would come in and be like, ‘Oh you should do your hair like this. You should do your makeup like this. That was his love language, clothes. So I always just trusted in him… but it’s not just about clothes. That was the last thing we had really in common,’ Kim explained.

‘I’m trying to figure out who am I in the fashion world or who am I by myself? I was always like The Kardashians with my sisters, and then I was like Kimye. Like, who is Kim K? That is the jump. How do I get there without Kanye? When I filed for divorce, it’s been like 10 months now, and I am finally like stepping out like, I can do this,’ she added.

Scott comes by the house, asking, ‘Are you decent?’ Kim says, ‘Yes,’ and Scott says, ‘If you weren’t I still would’ve come in.’

Kim says in confession that Scott, ‘always makes me laugh and I think Scott will always give me confidence. I just want him here. I need some kind of moral support.’

Another friend, Chris Reda, comes by, as Kim tells them that she’s giving a speech at Simon’s rehearsal dinner.

She asks if she could tell her speech to them, as Scott says, ‘After SNL you can do anything.’

Kim says, ‘I know but I feel like after SNL, the pressure is mounting, before starting into her speech.

‘So I think I’ll say something along the lines of like I love a gay wedding and just be like, I haven’t been to one since my second wedding,’ referring to her short-lived marriage to NBA player Kris Humphries that only lasted 72 days.

Scott starts laughing as Kim asks if it’s, ‘funny’ or ‘not funny’ and Scott thinks it’s, ‘amazing.’

Kim adds that this is a ‘big deal’ because it’s her first event where she’s not using her stylist and her whole team, but Scott says, ‘Look how well you’ve done with SKIMS. You know what you’re doing.’

Kim says it’s her, ‘one insecurity,’ as Scott says he’s excited to go back to more of, ‘you,’ but Kim admits she, ‘doesn’t know what that is.’

‘I’ll tell you right now. Butt-a** tight Missioni dress. Some big-a** heels with that big a** hanging out. And you’ll be looking fire,’ Scott says as Kim can’t help but laugh.

Scott tells the camera that it’s ‘crazy’ to him that, ‘Kim would ever be insecure about her looks because she’s maybe the most famous person in the world for being the most beautiful person in the world so it’s kinda cool to know that everybody has their own insecurities sometimes, but at the end of the day, nobody really does it better than her.’

Kim finishes putting on a purple outfit with a plunging neckline, as Scott says, ‘That’s a serious look.’

Scott says, ‘People are gonna like you for who you are, not what you wear. I’m just kidding, obviously.’

 

The episode cuts to a photoshoot in Hollywood where Kris is being photographed in an all-white pantsuit, with Kris adding in confession that they are shooting promos for The Kardashians.

‘I’m finally moving into my new house and it’s my birthday,’ Kris adds in confession.

Kris goes over to visit Kourtney, who says she was, ‘so sick I thought I was gonna die,’ as she reveals that Mason had a cold and presumably gave it to her.

Kris says she’s going to tell Kourtney this quick because she doesn’t want to get sick, but tells her that she had lunch with Scott and, ‘he’s feeling really left out lately and it’s making me feel really bad.’

Kris adds in confession, ‘I want nothing more than to see my daughter happy, but I also love Scott very much and we want Travis to feel really comfortable and to feel welcome so… it’s always some drama, isn’t it.’

Kris asks Kourtney how she’d feel about Scott coming to her birthday dinner, with Kourtney stating, ‘Whatever you want for your birthday, I want it to be the way you want to envision your birthday.’

Kris says she feels like she’s, ‘cheating’ on Scott or Travis because she doesn’t want to make Travis, ‘feel a way and I don’t want Scott to be sad.’

Kourtney adds in confession, ‘I know Travis is like a really authentic person and wants to feel like he can be affectionate with me. I just want to protect our energy. I think that’s our only thing.’

Kourtney says she wants Kris to have the best birthday as Kris leaves her trailer.

The episode picks back up at Kris’ house as guests like Ellen DeGeneres are seen arriving, along with her daughters.

Kris says in confession that she gave herself her best birthday present – her new house, as Kourtney and Travis arrive.

Ellen and her wife Portia de Rossi call Travis, ‘Mr. Romance,’ as Ellen gives Travis a hug, saying the engagement was, ‘so beautiful.’

Kourtney says in confession, ‘My mom’s house is beautiful. I know it’s everything she’s dreamed of,’ as she tells her and Travis it’s a real Tiffany lamp.

Kris shows them the screening room, bar, gym and a room for the designer dinnerware sets that she collects, which she tells her friend Faye Resnick is, ‘my dream.’

‘I have goosebumps everywhere. This is absolutely out of this world,’ Faye tells Kris.

Khloe points out some of the amazing features of the house, adding in confession, ‘Living in Kris Jenner world is just absolute fabulousness.’

‘Like being surrounded by absolute opulence and a dirty martini in a crystal glass covered in diamonds… and fabulous s**t everywhere,’ Khloe says in confession.

Ellen and Portia keep talking to Kourtney and Travis, with Ellen saying she’s so proud of Travis for overcoming his fear of flying, saying, ‘That’s a huge thing that you overcame.’

‘I told her, she transformed me. I’m like, I never even considered it before,’ Travis said of flying again, which he had vowed to never do again after surviving a deadly plane crash in 2008 that killed the two pilots along with his assistant and security guard.

Barker and Adam ‘DJ AM’ Goldstein both survived the wreck, though it scarred both men, with Goldstein left with severe burns and dying just a year later from a drug overdose.

Scott pulls up and enters the party, welcomed by Kris, as he gives Kris her present and gives Khloe a hug.

Kourtney admits in confession, ‘To be in the same room together is not a bad thing. It’s a great first step for everyone and it will take time for everyone to figure out what makes sense.’

Scott comes up to Travis and says, ‘Congratulations, brother,’ and gives him a quick handshake and hug, as Travis responds, ‘Thank you, thank you.’

Scott gives Kourtney a hug and says ‘Congrats’ again, but Kourtney reminds him that he’s seen her since, but he says, ‘I haven’t seen you both.’

Khloe admits in confession that it is ‘so awkward for the other siblings involved. We don’t know what to do. We just want to be respectful to each other’s new lives. It’s like we’re always just ignoring this elephant in the room. It’s bizarre and I don’t know why we’re always tiptoeing around something that’s not even our f***ing relationship to tiptoe around. I’m exhausted just trying to explain this to everyone and I’m f***ing sweating.’

We get the first hints that Kim is dating Pete Davidson at this party, with Scott asking how last night was, adding he facetimed her, but Kim says, ‘I was probably busy,’ with a sly laugh.

Kim is in confession, texting away, as a producer asks, ‘Who are you texting, Kim?’ Kim smiles and says with a giggle, ‘Leave me alone.’

The producer adds that she has a big smile on her face, asking, ‘Does his name rhyme with feet?’ as Kim can only laugh.

Scott says that he has seen all these comments about how nice Pete is, as Kim only says he is, ‘truly the sweetest, nicest human being on the planet.’

Scott asks if she’s just, ‘having a good time,’ as Kim tells Scott and Ellen and everyone else gathered, ‘I’ll tell you guys later.’

Kris gathers everyone to start with appetizers, adding in confession, ‘My favorite thing in the world is to be with my family. As time goes by, I realize I really want to spend more time with my kids whenever I can. We’re all so busy, so crazy, and the days go by so fast, so this, to me, is heaven.’

The guests all start to gather around the table, as Ellen notices that Kourtney and Travis are making out again, joking, ‘they’ll be here in about an hour.’

Ellen says it’s, ‘truly unbelievable,’ as Scott gets a glimpse at Travis and Kourtney kissing, as Kris notices him watching, saying, ‘this couldn’t be more awkward.’

Ellen asks if that’s the first time that’s happened and Kris says, ‘Yeah,’ as Kourtney admits in confession, ‘I know we were holding back. That I do know. We weren’t like just fully going for it.’

‘I didn’t know that anyone was looking at us,’ Kourtney admits in confession, as Kris tells Scott to sit next to Khloe, while Scott watches Kourtney and Travis’ dynamic.

He adds in confession, ‘She found someone. I’m happy for her. She’s got a man who loves her, and she deserves it, because there were so many years where I didn’t put her first.’

Khloe makes a toast, saying, ‘Happy birthday to my beautiful mom. You are literally the reason why we are all here. You are the reason for everything, you are the queen of all queens, and we are all so grateful to have you in our lives.’

‘We’re so happy that we are all together. We love you and we hope you have the best birthday,’ Khloe concludes, as they all sing Happy Birthday to Kris.

‘Thank you guys, I love you,’ Kris says.

Back in Miami, Kendall says she’s sad she’s missing her mom’s birthday, ‘but I’ll be back to give her a birthday hug in a couple of days.’

Kendall calls Kris to see how her birthday was, as Kris says, ‘We had so much fun.’

Kris tells Kendall that Scott came, as Kendall couldn’t help but smile and say, ‘Shut up.’

‘It was going to have to happen at some point. It’s good to just break the ice, I guess,’ as Kris said that was exactly how she felt.

Kendall asks if Scott was OK, as Kris said, ‘Scott was great,’ as Kendall says in confession that she has known Scott since she was a kid.

‘I love Scott. I’ve known him since I was a baby, since I was a kid. Scott is my brother. We’re basically blood at this point, and so it would be very weird if he wasn’t part of our family and I don’t think there’s gonna be a day where he’s not a part of our family,’ Kendall says in confession.

Kris says she gives, ‘a lot of props to Travis, because he treated him so nicely,’ adding, ‘it was a great night.’

Back in Los Angeles, Khloe gets snapped by paparazzi photographers while entering La Vita, where she meets up with her best friend Malika Haqq.

Malika asks how her house is going, as Khloe says, ‘The amount of f***ery that goes on over there.’

She explains that they put doors on her master closet, as an exasperated Malika responds, ‘Oh no they didn’t.’

‘I am so excited for my house to be done. I am so excited to move in. I have daydreams about living next door to my mom and I get to just walk on over and just join her little cocktail hour. My mom lives the life, ‘she says in confession.

Malika asks how Tristan is doing and Khloe says he’s in Sacramento, adding, ‘I guess someone hit him in a game the other day and he severed his tongue and had to get all these stitches on his tongue.’

Malika says that ‘severed is an extreme word,’ and Khloe admits, ‘It wasn’t that extreme. I say severed because it was the most disgusting thing.’

Khloe joked that he couldn’t really talk and now that he’s OK, it was kinda funny, adding he will be in town soon, and ‘I’m excited to show him the house because it will be ready by then.’

‘Right now, Tristan and I are so happy. Of course, he is my best friend. We have so much fun together and he’s trying so hard, going to therapy, doing all theses things, and I think that’s what I’m most proud of,’ Khloe says in confession.

Khloe tells Malika that, ‘Mama is good, girl’ as they enjoy their lunch.

Back in Calabasas, Kendall comes back home to visit her mom, with her dog in tow, seeing her mom’s house for the first time.

‘I feel bad cause I missed my mom’s birthday and I didn’t get to see her brand new house, which I was really excited about because one of my secret passions in life is interior design and architecture,’ Kendall said in confession.

‘She killed it, she really did,’ Kendall adds,’ with Kris telling her she’s been working so much and she still doesn’t know where everything is.

Kendall starts pulling things from the fridge as Kris asks if she wants the chef to make her a snack, but Kendall says she’ll do it herself.

Kendall says she just has to chop up some cucumber, adding, ‘It’s pretty easy,’ but she starts cutting the cucumber quite awkwardly.

Kris tells her to ‘be careful because I nicked myself the other day,’ as Kendall awkwardly cuts thin slices of cucumber, adding, ‘I know, I’m kinda scared.’

‘Don’t cucumbers have seeds?’ Kendall asks, before looking at the camera and saying, ‘I’m definitely not a good cutter so don’t zoom in on me.’

The camera does get a few shots of her cutting, as Kris calls the chef over to cut the cucumber for her, but Kendall insists, ‘I’ll do it, mom, I’m fine.’

Scott arrives, saying, ‘the house looks even better during the day,’ as Kris tells Scott that Kendall is cutting cucumber.

They all go sit outside as their dogs are playing with each other, as Scott asks what’s happening for Thanksgiving, adding, ‘Did I get banned from that yet?’

Kris says they are doing Thanksgiving in Palm Springs, as Scott asks if he’s invited or not.

‘You’re invited, I just have to figure out where everybody is staying now,’ Kris says, adding there are, ‘no more rooms available.’

Kris adds in confession, ‘Sometimes Scott can play a bit of a victim, and I feel like that’s what’s happening here right now. I just want everyone to be happy, but don’t put me in the middle.’

Kendall asks if they were all together for Kris’ birthday and Scott says they were fine, before asking why Kendall didn’t invite him to her birthday.

‘I didn’t really invite anyone to my birthday,’ adding that nobody came, but Scott insists that, ‘everybody came.’

‘I love you. I’ve been helping you throw your birthday parties for the past 10 years,’ Scott says, asking if Kourtney and Travis went and Kendall insists, ‘nobody went.’

‘Oh, at the dinner at my house? Yeah but literally only Kourtney and Travis came, that wasn’t a party,’ Kendall says.

‘Never in a million years would Kendall not invite me to a birthday dinner,’ Scott adds, but Kris insists she, ‘didn’t have a birthday dinner.’

Kris says she had a birthday party at a club, as Scott complains, ‘I wasn’t invited to that either.’

Kendall adds, ‘I had a birthday dinner, mom. You were there at my house,’ as Scott asks, ‘So why wasn’t I invited to that?’

‘We’ve already went over this, Scott. It was actually all my friends,’ as Scott added, ‘Oh so you didn’t want me there.’

Kendall responded, ‘No, I wasn’t going to invite family members, period,’ but Scott added, ‘But you invited everybody but me.’

‘Just cause Kourt was gonna be there. It was very intimate,’ Kendall says, but Scott doesn’t understand, ‘why I should be left out.’

‘I’m not saying you should. That is not my business at the end of the day. Making Kourtney uncomfortable is not part of my business,’ Kendall said.

‘I’m so sorry that makes you sad and I’m not ever trying to leave you out, but what I’m saying is, by Kourtney being uncomfortable about something like that, that’s not really my business,’ Kendall explained.

Scott said he didn’t never invite them when he had a girlfriend but Kendall says, ‘That’s so different, Scott.’

‘You can’t like take a second and like, ‘Hey, I’m having a birthday, I think you might be uncomfortable?’ Scott asks.

Kendall admits she should have texted him, ‘But I’ve been the one to have that attitude about it the entire time.’

Scott asked what that means and Kendall says that on the night of Kourt and Travis’ engagement, she’s the one who asked, ‘What about Scott’s feelings?’

Kris said that was true, and Scott got upset that she did all that and she still didn’t invite him to her birthday.

‘Kourtney, at the end of the day, is my sister, and of course I want her there. This dinner was literally 15 people. If it’s an intimate dinner and I’m not willing to have an uncomfortable situation happen…’ Kendall says before being cut off by Scott who says he’s upset.

Kendall says she’s saying sorry and Scott says, ‘I would never not invite you,’ and Kendall says, ‘But Scott, I’m saying sorry,’ as Scott says, ‘I’ve not heard you say sorry.’

They keep going back and forth before Kendall says, ‘I’m literally… I’m out,’ before getting up from the table. ‘This is so f***ing ridiculous. You won’t let me speak, Scott.’

‘Because you didn’t say anything,’ Scott says as Kendall says he’s talking over her as Scott says she didn’t say, ‘she had a f***ing party or a birthday.’

‘No I didn’t! I literally… Scott, that was my mom. I literally said Yes mom I did. Scott, please replay the f***ing video,’ Kendall says before walking out of her mom’s house.

‘I’m so over this s**t, Scott, for real,’ Kendall adds before closing the door as Scott says, ‘Oooh,’ as Kris just hangs her head, as the episode comes to an end.’

The preview for next week’s episode of The Kardashians goes back to Kris’ porch where this episode left off, as Scott complains, ‘No one in this family wants to deal with anything.’

Kendall has another chat with Scott, telling him, ‘You immediately attacked me, and I was like, oh I don’t like this.’

Khloe is working out with Tristan, joking that, ‘Scott is never leaving, Kanye is never leaving, looks like you’re never leaving.’

‘More like you’re never leaving me,’ Tristan says, as Khloe awkwardly says, ‘Oh, OK.

Travis and Kourtney are talking about how they, ‘just need that one follicle,’ after their egg retrieval procedure, while Kim gets together with Tracy to reveal the results of her last chance of the ‘baby bar’ exam.

‘If I don’t pass the bar then this law school journey is over for me,’ Kim says in confession, before saying in the car with Tracy that her heart is racing.

The Kardashians returns with the sixth episode of their 10-episode first season on Thursday, May 19 at 12 AM ET/9 PM PT only on Hulu.