Caroline Flack’s mother, Christine, has opened up about the profound regret she carries following the devastating loss of her daughter, who was a beloved presenter on Love Island.

In an exclusive preview of the Disney+ documentary titled “Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth,” Christine is seen with her children Paul, Elizabeth, and Caroline’s twin sister Jody. Together, they visit Caroline’s memorial bench in north London, a place where they gather to cherish memories of her life.

The documentary, which Christine participated in to shed light on the events leading up to Caroline’s passing, captures her expressing the varied emotions she experiences at the memorial site. She shares a poignant letter she once penned to her daughter.

Christine reflects, saying, “When I come here, my emotions vary each time, don’t they?”

She continues, “On that particular day, I was feeling quite low. I wrote, ‘Another lonely year has passed. I miss you as much today as the day you left. I am determined to tell the world about the terrible influences that led you to this. I won’t give up. I love you with all my heart.'”

Her visible sorrow moves Elizabeth, Caroline’s elder sister, to ask, “Do you think there will come a time, Mum, when you’ll feel at peace and can stop fighting?”

Caroline Flack’s mother Christine (pictured) has revealed her ‘biggest regret’ after the former Love Island host tragically took her own life

In a first-look clip from the Disney+ documentary Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth, Christine and her children, Paul, Elizabeth, and Jody, visit the late star’s memorial bench 

The late star, known for presenting TV shows such as The X Factor and Love Island, died by suicide in February 2020

Christine has spent the five years since Caroline’s death in February 2020 searching for answers, and the documentary focuses on the final months before her suicide.

The former Love Island presenter’s passing followed her being stripped of her role on the ITV2 show and a charge of assault by beating from the CPS after an incident with her ex-boyfriend, Lewis Burton.

In response to Elizabeth, Christine said: ‘I hope I can stop. I hope there will be an end to it. You can’t fight for the rest of your life, but you can fight until the truth is out there.’  

Elizabeth replied: ‘My main anxiety is, you’re dealing with organisations that are so corrupt, they have so much money, legal experts, can you ever really get to the truth in these organisations?’  

Christine and Caroline’s brother, Paul, said that the star is the first thing on their minds when they wake up, as they gathered around her memorial bench on a rainy day.  

‘I just hope I can achieve something. And as long as you lot all don’t mind me doing it, I will go ahead’, Christine added.  

Caroline’s mother, who lives in Norfolk where the former Strictly Come Dancing winner grew up, said her ‘biggest regret’ was not speaking up during her daughter’s final months, when the family had been warned against voicing their opinions.  

Christine said: ‘I think Caroline would be pleased with what I’m doing. I wish I had done it then, before she took her own life, and that’s my biggest regret, that I wasn’t shouting like this, then. But now I have nothing to lose. The worst thing in the world happened with losing Carrie.’ 

Christine, who filmed the two-part series with the streamer to investigate the months before Caroline died, says she experiences ‘different moods’ when visiting the special spot

Christine read aloud a note she had previously written for her daughter, saying it had been another ‘lonely year’ without her 

At Caroline’s memorial bench, her family keep a wooden box bearing her name, ‘Carrie,’ and a picture of a butterfly, which mirrors one of the late star’s tattoos

There is also a piece of wood which reads ‘Sweet Caroline’ as well as fresh flowers laid by the family as they continue to grieve their devastating loss

The former Love Island presenter’s passing followed her being stripped of her role on the ITV2 show and a charge of assault by beating from the CPS (pictured July 2019)

Caroline rose to become one of the nation’s best-known presenters, hosting The X Factor, I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here! spinoff shows and Love Island. 

She also triumphed on Strictly Come Dancing, picked up a Bafta and took to the West End stage as Roxie Hart in Chicago.

At the time of her death, Caroline was in a relationship with former semi-professional tennis player Lewis Burton, and had been accused of assaulting him following an argument at her north London home. 

Caroline admitted to hitting Lewis with a mobile phone after seeing a message that made her believe he had been unfaithful.

When Lewis said he would call the police, Caroline became distressed and injured herself before officers from the Metropolitan Police arrived at the scene. 

While the injury to Lewis’s head did not require medical treatment, Caroline was taken to hospital, where she received care for 12 hours.

As well as her presenting work, Caroline also triumphed on Strictly Come Dancing, picked up a Bafta and took to the West End stage as Roxie Hart in Chicago 

In the weeks that followed, she was charged in connection with the incident. After learning that the case would proceed despite Lewis not pressing charges, Caroline tragically died by suicide.

In an interview with the Guardian’s G2 on Monday, Christine expressed how she believes the Crown Prosecution Service treated her daughter differently because of her celebrity status. 

She said: ‘Domestic violence needs to be taken seriously. I know how bad it is. I know people who have been through horrendous times, trapped in controlling, abusive relationships and nothing has been done to help. But this wasn’t that.’ 

In the Disney+ documentary, former Chief Crown Prosecutor Nazir Afzal says it ‘makes no sense’ that Caroline was prosecuted. 

Speaking in the film, he said: ‘The worst thing that should have happened is a caution.  

‘I can’t think of any reason [for the CPS] to proceed other than being scared of what would have been said about them.’ 

Caroline Flack: Search for the Truth is on Disney+ from 10 November